Update, I suck and post tites...

I'm about eight and a half weeks in and I'm really thinking this pregnancy is vastly different from the last one. I'm not nearly as sick as I was last time. I still get decently nauseous, but no vomit yet, thank heavens. I have my first appointment on the 20th and then another one on the 30th with my actual OB. I'm kind of sad because I know I'm not getting nearly as many ultrasounds as I did last time. It probably seems odd that I was happy to be at the hospital every other week, but it was fun seeing my babies and I really felt like I knew who they were. This time it's going to be very different, starting with way less appointments. I'm still plenty nervous though. It was all my insane monitoring last time that caught my preeclampsia and I'm not going to have that this time (I think, I guess I'll know for sure in a couple of weeks) I just really want everything to go smoothly and more than anything get a happy, healthy baby out of this (and if I could quit my job anytime soon that would really be nice too).

Tyson starts school for the "last" time this month and he's looking for a second job, he really wants me to stop working too. It's a good thing, but I'm really afraid of never seeing him. I used to be a really independent person, but if there is one thing I've learned while he's been at scout camp this week is that I'm no longer that person, and I'm okay with that. Man I really like having him around, if I knew what he was going to be like as a husband and father he would have had to beat me off with a stick, I'm just glad he was really determined.

Anyways thats the gist, life is really busy and we are about to have out 3rd anniversary, 3 kids in 3.5 years, yeah we maybe nuts, but we love it!

My babies are 2! and other news

I can't believe my tiny little babies are now 2 years old. We had a checkup this week and the doctor actual said developmently they are ahead of schedule and other than the fact that they are a little small you would never know they are preemies. Jackson actually reached the 5% in weight and 4% in height and Jameson finally hit the weight charts at 3%, though height was only 1%, but hey, my little men are a growing!

We had their birthday party today and it was a whole "Take me out to the ball game" theme with hotdogs, nachos, peanuts, homemade cracker jacks, homemade rootbeer, etc. We had so much fun and my boys now have a million balls (baseballs, footballs, soccer balls, beach balls etc.) we also got them a t-ball set and they haven't stopped playing with it. It was so much fun to have family come over and celebrate with us.

Speaking of celebrating, our "other news" is that I am pregnant! Only 6.5 weeks, but I just can't keep a secret (at least not one I'm this excited about, I can't believe I kept it for 2 weeks as it is!).  I'm due March 14th and we've had an ultrasound (this baby is all heart,). This time we only have one, but I'm happy, I was a little disappointed at first, but in the long run I think it will be better for us. My back is messed up and twin pregnancies take a lot out of you. I also think it will be easier for the boys to adjust to 1 rather than 2. I'm counting the days till Tyson can fully support our family and I can quit my job. I don't totally hate it, but I'm kind of sick of cooking for 80 and then not having the energy to feed my boys anything but poptarts for dinner (that haven't even been heated, don't judge me!). I love being a mom, it's my favorite job and I can't wait to do it full time again.

I think that's all for now, good luck to all those out there trying, miracles do happen!

Next up...

So we decided we aren't going to do the IUI again, at least for a month or two, we can't really afford it  anyways. In the meantime we are going to continue trying with just the meds and hope maybe something happens in the next month or two, if not maybe we will be able to save up some money to try something else.

On a more silly note, I have entered my boys in the baby contest for Summerfest, and though I shouldn't have, I totally bought them adorable new outfits. I figure we can use them this once and then they can be birthday presents. Yes, I really do have to rationalize pretty much everything I do, especially if it involves money. Anyways, I got the letter with the stuff they are doing and there is a twins/siblings category, and they are identical blue eyed adorable little boys, so I figured maybe that would give us a leg up. I don't really care if we win anything, but it would be way cool if they did and I'd be covered with birthday presents for next month, and that would be really great. Also they give you a picture, and my boys really need new pictures. My photographer went and moved to Vegas a while back and I can't bring myself to find a new right now. (I miss you Megan!) Anyways, wish us luck! (I say that a lot these days, don't I?)

So...

We are not pregnant, and I don't know what we are going to do now. I think we are gonna try for the temple tomorrow. I'm in desperate need of some guidance, because logic, desire, and the guidance I've thought I've gotten don't seem to be doing much for me these days.

Good News!

I went to the doctor today for one last ultrasound praying that everything would be ok so we can go ahead with the IUI tomorrow, and for once everything is perfect. I actually have a good uterine lining and 2 eggs ready to go and I was so excited that I didn't have to pay for more meds this time. So I got shot up and we'll be headed in tomorrow for the procedure. I'm praying it works this time. I don't have enough money to try this again anytime soon. We can use all the prayers we can get! Wish us luck!

Finally got some good news!

So today was filled with more tests for me and my husband this time, and for once we both got good results. They did a sperm count on the hubby and his numbers were much more than good they were fantastic, like almost twice as good as they hoped they would be. Then came my tests, they were doing a hystogram, one of the few tests I haven't had run before. This consists of having saline run up through ones uterus and fallopian tubes while doing an ultrasound. This is done to check for polyps, fibroids, and blocked tubes. As per usual I totally expected something bad to show up, and I was pleasantly surprised when I was informed I had neither fibroids or polyps and apparently my fallopian tubes are amazingly clear, they seemed surprised at how fast the saline went right through me. Also he thinks we are going to get 2 eggs out of this cycle, with a slight possibility of 3, but my uterine lining is also looking good and that is totally a first! I go back for another ultrasound Tuesday and hopefully a nice big shot of HCG followed by an IUI either Wednesday or Thursday. I'm praying it works this time because we do not have the money to try this again anytime soon unless I want to start running up a few more credit card bills and I'd really like to avoid that. Wish us luck!

Ouch!

So first off, I chopped of the tip of my finger (lucky me!) thankfully no bone, they couldn't sew it back on, but it seems to be healing do that's good. Now on to the baby stuff. I went to the doctor on day 38. This time I actually had quite a thick uterine lining, but a negative pregnancy test. So he put me on progesterone to try and bring my period on, I'm on day 6 of that and still no period. I'm debating another pregnancy test. Anyways, if I ever do get this dang period then we are starting the Femara again and making another go around of the IUI. In the meantime I'm playing with my little stinker that refuses to go to sleep. He's just too darn cute and I can't seem to put him back down.